It is hard to know what to label this story. Although it is a biography, it has a hint of fiction as well, not about the facts, but about how they came about, and possibly even the exact dates of some of their happenings.
The story depicts the hardships endured, the emotions and thoughts experienced, the bravery manifested, and the steadfast faith motivating and strengthening a courageous woman, who struggles to lead her household through the cruel depression, and difficult war years.
Jessie Hudson, the protagonist of IF YOU ONLY KNEW… gives up a promising nursing career to become the wife of impetuous Allyn Splane, who chooses the hard-life of pioneering in northern Alberta, over the security of his railway job in Calgary.
The account, divided into two parts, is told in third person, past tense, mainly from Jessie's point of view.
Part one takes in Jessie's growing-up years, 1902-1922; her nursing days, 1922-1928; her marriage, 1928; the birth of her children, including near-death experiences with a premature baby and a miscarriage, children's illnesses, fires, drought, dust, grasshoppers, discouragement, loneliness, and despair, 1929-1939; and the family's move from the north, 1939, at the start of World War II.
A short prologue at the beginning of part one projects the reader ahead to 1939:
On a cold October morning, a mother walks away from a shack—her home—leaving behind her children. Why is she walking away?
Another brief prologue at the beginning of part two flashes ahead into the story, leaving the reader feeling that something is amiss with Jessie. What is it?
Experiences of the protagonist which pepper the second part of the book are: the joy of a Blue Ribbon for "best garden"; the sorrow brought on by a wayward daughter; the heart-rending separation from her children while they are away at school; the frustration of enduring nineteen unpleasant house-guests; the care of an abandoned baby, threatening the pursuance of her nursing career; the pain of dealing with a daughter's blindness; the anguish of a daughter on her death bed; and the euphoria she experiences when she regains her nursing status.
The epilogue, told in first-person from the author's point of view, ties together the two prologues and brings the reader up-to-date. Gathered with family and friends at her father's graveside service in October 1989, the author looks across the Tawatinaw Valley to where the log shack used to be. She reminisces on the family's days in the valley, and recalls the day she last saw her mother. Intermingled with her reminiscences are brief accounts from each of her siblings, zooming ahead to the present, leaving the reader with the feeling of satisfaction that the story is still living.
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